For the Mr. Kites

I can't put together a coherent post right now, but here are a couple fun facts about my life recently to tide you all over.

• So my roommate's boyfriend is on spring break, and has thus been living in our room for the past week. I have gotten sexiled so many times, it's not even funny. Entertaining for the first couple of times, but now just slightly irritating. At least the week is almost over!
• Spring break was warm, fun, and much-needed. Disneyland on a Tuesday is AWESOME...no lines = hitting every ride (except Matterhorn :( it was closed) in both parks in about 8 hours, and Space Mountain TWICE. Yeeeuhhh.
  
• ...And now I'm thinking that maybe I want to stay in California over summer, with trips to the East Coast and hopefully Taiwan in between? Currently applying to internships at organizations aimed at providing counseling services for Asian Americans. I got into my Taiwan intensive program, but not sure if I want to do it anymore. Updates to come!
  
• Saw Alice in Wonderland last Friday...must say I am slightly disappointed. The graphics and the characters were amazingly done, but the plot was somewhat lacking, and rather flat. Even the climax wasn't that exciting.
• I'm getting back into work mode and it feels good. I love being productive!! Setting goals for myself at BC, for the summer, and for more personal things as well.
• Dance is slowly taking over my life again. I'm okay with that.
• Got a bunch of new music...I really like (well done) dubstep, and Sneaky Soundsystem is pretty great too. Check out their song, "Kansas City". Although I like many different types of music, I can never stray too far from EDM (Electronic Dance Music). Electro has my heart ♥

A very entertaining and enlightening clip on street dance and dance in general. It's 17 minutes long but worth every minute of it, I promise! A more wordy post coming soon.

So culture show is finally over. Over 6 months of work, including 1 hellishly stressful month, and suddenly I find myself drowning in time when before I had to fight tooth and nail to grasp a measly handful. 2 weeks before the show was the worst for some reason - It coincided with the worst of my homesickness, with social crises and a frighteningly cold spell, and I wondered for a couple of days whether or not it would be actually worth it.

And now it's over. Runthroughs were okay, and sorry to anybody I scared the bejesus out of when I was yelling...but I would do it again! The show actually ended up running very smoothly (minus the parts where I had to talk, heh. Definitely should've planned that out more) and I keep hearing a lot of good feedback. It's so strange to see something that me and M (the other culture chair) envisioned last July coming to life on stage, but I guess that was the theme of the show right? Museum X, where culture comes to life. I'm so proud of myself and thankful for my e-board, the performers, and everybody involved. The moment after we bowed when the curtains closed was such an amazing feeling.
PS: Read the wonderful article that our newspaper wrote about our show HERE


I've been in a ridiculously good mood since our show on Friday, and I keep getting this stupid goofy grin that I can't wipe off my face, but I'm coming down from my culture show high right about now. The weekend was really fun, and also really surprising, and I'm excited to see how everything works out over the next couple of weeks. Unfortunately, I'm having a problem getting back into school mode. I don't think it's related to culture show, although when I was really busy with that I had a legitimate excuse for blowing off schoolwork, whereas now I am just slacking and being lazy. It's so hard to stay motivated 2 semesters at a time!! Okay, I promise myself that I will do better, but all I can think about is going home in 2 weeks for SPRING BREAK!! I'm dragging 4 friends home with me and we're taking a road trip to socal to play at Disneyland and the beach, and I'm really excited!


Something interesting that I used to wonder about. Why is there such a big divide between choreographed dance (hip hop groups, what you generally think of as "dance") and street dance (bboys, lockers, poppers, waackers, etc)?? I don't think it's only a BC thing, since I know my friends from home have also expressed this type of negative sentiment. Also with the recent trend with America's Best Dance Crew, I've heard some of my bboy friends express discontent at classic bboy crews "selling out" by being on the show, and even stealing moves from other well known bboys in the dance world. More personally though, here at BC I waack. I am part of the group Conspiracy Theory, which is composed of mostly street dance styles. However, there is another choreographed hip hop group on campus called Synergy, which has a tendency to run dance shows on campus, and be invited to perform at almost every type of show possible. BC loves them their Synergy. There is a lot of animosity between the 2 groups, a lot of saying that the other group isn't real "dance" and competitiveness is high. It even goes so far as to attacking particular people in each group, which I think is taking it a little far. Of course, all of this could stem from the fact that Conspiracy Theory was started by a couple of ex-Synergy members who disliked the group.

I don't quite know what to make of this - For all intents and purposes, when someone looks at my dance background I am a choreographed style dancer. I enjoy practicing routines for shows for weeks at a time, I enjoy learning other people's choreography. And yet, I still have the utmost respect for street dancers, not necessarily because I now am a part of a street dance style group, but simply because all dance is dance in it's own way...To each his own right? And while I really enjoy Conspiracy and spending time with the people in the group, I can't help but wish that I had tried out for Synergy my freshmen year. I miss choreographed dance and mandatory practices and all day rehearsals.

I'm not too sure what's going to happen next year. I plan to dance my ass off in Tokyo, and I want to continue that when I get back on campus. I'm not sure if Conspiracy alone could fulfill this need, but I know I'd probably get shunned or murdered (even if not seriously) if I ever tried out for Synergy. Not too sure how it's all going to go down....



WHATEVS. All I want to do is dance!

[Note: I started this post a week or two ago but I seriously just have never had time to finish it....I'm trying!!!] School has started and things are geting more than a little crazy already. I ended up getting the exact schedule that I wanted so I shouldn't complain, but basically the only things I have time for are work, dance, CSA, and sleep. A quick rundown of what's going on in my life:

Japanese: My teacher is a tiny cute little Asian woman, albeit with ADD and maybe a little crazy. But we like them a little crazy. Lots of friends in the class, I'm really interested in Japanese and I need to practice more so that my characters don't look like random scribbles. I'm excited for this class! I love learning new languages :)

Stats: Yeah...not much to say about this. As much as I like math, stats is something different completely. Our teacher is really enthusiastic and I have a few friends in this class too, so it's not too bad, but then again, it's stats. If I didn't have to take this for my major I definitely wouldn't haha.

Classical Mythology: I absolutely love mythology. One of the first books we had at home when I was young (other than children's picture books and a slew of historical fiction....I know we're strange) was a big blue book on Greek mythology. I never had a chance to fit Mythology into my schedule in high school, so I'm really excited to take it now. Our teacher is really nice and funny and I love her already :) Also, she brings her dog to office hours which is basically awesome. This class is living up to my expectations, and I'm really excited for the rest of the semester...even for the two 6-page papers coming up. Her sample essay topics sound so interesting!

Religious Quest: This was the last class in my schedule to fall in place. BC, being a Jesuit school, has a theology requirement and the Religious Quest sounds like the most interesting. As a comparative theology class, my section is comparing Buddhism (which I really like) and Christianity (which is unavoidable). My teacher is a lama (as in Dalai lama, not the animal like a lot of other people thought) and he really knows what he's talking about, but he kind of has a soothing sleepy voice haha. I really enjoy the content in this class, and the readings are actually stirring deep thinkings regarding my own beliefs in Buddhism, whether or not I agree, and my own interactions with life. More on this later..

Health Psych: Another fun old little man teaching this class. Although I originally wanted to take Adolescent Psychology, apparently that class requires 15 hours of volunteer service a semester and I unfortunately don't have that kind of time this year. I ended up signing up for health psych at the urging of a friend, and seeing as how it first nicely into my schedule and it's about the psychology of stress (something I can use this year), I thought why not. This is actually a really interesting class...the professor works at the Cambridge and MIT medical centers and he supplements his lectures with little anecdotes from his own experiences. The class doesn't even feel like two hours! Again, probably more on this later on in the semester.

CSA: So e-board is off with a bang, and I love it. Again, it helps that I actually enjoy the company of everybody on my board and despite the fact that I see these 8 other people 24/7, I am still not annoyed at anybody. Even though this is sucking all of my time, seeing the results of all of our efforts is so satisfying!!! I guess in the end triapsing all the way to Newton and Upper to knock on the doors of 140 freshmen was totally worth it...even if they thought we were creepy for knowing where they live (WHICH WE'RE NOT...anybody can find where you live by looking on the BC directory :D). And as chaotic as setting up for the first general meeting was, with only 3 members of our eboard available at a time to fry 400 dumpling and carry a billion things to the room as well as the problem with the room rec, so many people turned up and people actually laughed at our really awkward/creepy video, which was extremely gratifying. There's so much going on even within the next month that I am looking forward to, especially finally adding the last 4 members of our e-board, the 4 freshmen reps that we're picking at the end of the month. I'm excited for all that we can accomplish as student leaders and more :)

Conspiracy Theory: I'm trying my best to dance as much as possible, but after the crazyness that was last week along with my newly-lost ipod (FAIL...:( so sad.), I haven't gotten that many chances. Hopefully that will change this week though!! I tend to be in a worse average mood when I'm not dancing, and plus I want to get ridiculous at waacking. There was a jam last weekend on campus which was really fun to watch and just to be there in the vibe with a bunch of dancers. The popping battles were sick, the bboys did unearthly gravtiy-defying tricks and overrall it was a success, even with the minor dramz that went down behind the scenes.


So the first week of school was amazing but the second week so much. Just a slew of bad luck (or bad karma I guess..harhar) that included lots of lost things, immaterial and not, a car crash (everybody involved is okay, but both cars are no longer driveable), getting lost (kind of) and a severe lack of sleep that just made everything that much worse. However, the weekend was mostly fun, and nobody can watch Cirque du Soleil and stay in a bad mood :). Also, Regina Spektor last night was absolutely amazing...she sounds better live than on her CDs (if that was possible) and she's so funny and sweet and slightly awkward.

It's a new week and I'm trying to stay on top of my stuff and keep my head up... Nothing's perfect (definitely including me) and I'm trying hard to fix things. After all, all the effort we put into our relationships with other people and the world shouldn't be for nothing, and nobody should have to go through life alone and disliking where they have ended up. Wish me luck!

So back in little old Cupertino, and enjoying the beautiful sunny days...Sorry East Coast I had to take the sun back with me :P The last week of my vacation was quite eventful...I resolved some blaring issues, spent a good deal of money and visited my sister for the first time in Providence, as well as taking my first trip to the Hamptons where her friend had a lake house. First off, Montauk is breathtakingly beautiful....unfortunately I forgot my camera in Boston during our time at the lake and thus have no pictures of my own, but here are some stolen from my sister :)


The view from my window when I woke up every morning

We ended up taking two ferries and a bus back to Providence which was a little more expensive, but after our trip to Montauk I can definitely say I hate Greyhound, so it was totally worth it. Plus, the ferries stopped at more amazing islands and ports such as Block Island...Picture below


Gorgeous!! I definitely want to come back here to vacation some day and rent mopeds :)

I was talking about this with my sister on our enjoyable boat ride, but after coming to the East Coast I can really understand how some of my friends say they would never want to live anywhere else. Who can deny the allure of summer beach houses in the Hamptons and ski cabins in Vermont and the like? California is wonderfully lazy and chill in it's own right, but while I'm young and able-bodied I definitely want to travel and live somewhere a little more fast-paced..aka the East Coast. I really do love the city of Boston now, and I can see myself staying around for at least a couple of years after I graduate.

Also, after visiting the East Coast I have been invigorated by the ultimate desire to do a lot of things, including to learn how to cook, and cook well. Regardless of the fact that I won't have a kitchen next year, I believe this is a useful (and if I might say, quite impressive) skill...Also I've always loved to bake and cook breakfast, as long as I had the time. I have decided to expand my repertoire to include a wide variety of dishes :) I figured out a new delicious breakfast sandwich, and also cooked dinner for my family which was quite a success as well. I'm so pleased with the results!! More pictures are on my facebook, if you care to see, but here is my favorite dish from the night...Beef & tofu lettuce cups:


YUMMMMMMMMMMMM.

Next up on my list of things to cook are cheesecake and white sauce/seafood pastas for my Dad hehe. The problem with cooking is I guess mainly finding somebody to eat my food haha....I have a small stomach, unfortunately. Another thing I want to change is my waking up at 2 PM everyday. I am fully utilizing my 3 hour jetlag to get up before 10:30 everyday and so far it's kind of working...I now have time to make breakfast as well as be productive and such :)

Also, started dancing again...Class yesterday was a little disappointing, as it was my 3rd failed attempt at taking class with a certain teacher and hip hop was also a little lacking. I guess for hip hop you really need to go to the big urban cities to get the full experience? After taking class in New York and watching everybody in Boston, hip hop class in a little town doesn't seem that exciting haha. I might start driving up to SF to take class from Funkonometry or what not, but I guess we'll see how that goes. I realized that I really do want to keep dancing...maybe even after college? I'm thinking about joining a company or a dance group...contemporary or hip hop are both fine with me, as well as getting more involved with Conspiracy/Bulletproof Theory (BC's bboy crew...although I'm waacking it's still the same group :P) while I'm still in school. All I need is time!!! hahah

I guess one of the reasons that I've been thinking so far ahead about so many things I want to accomplish is because my all of my friends who just graduated are getting their lives sorted out, and in a sense are finally starting real life. They are all amazing interesting people who are doing amazing interesting things despite whatever their majors are. This ranges from cooking school to completing their master's on a full scholarship at one of the best universities in China to going full time as a photographer or getting into Parson's....basically they are all accomplishing the things they wanted to do and succeeding while still managing to do the things that they love. I can only hope that in 3 years when I am in their shoes I have achieved half of the things that they have.

In other less happy news, I've been feeling kind of down for multiple reasons which I wish I could write about, but can't due to various reasons. Things are changing in a lot of ways....The ones that are going in the direction I want still make me sad when I think about how nothing is the same, and the ones that aren't upset me even more. Why is it that even when we get what we want we still feel pangs of nostalgia, so that despite the fact that we won, we still aren't happy? This isn't the first time I've felt like this, and neither will it be the last, but I wish it would stop happening. Just being selfish, I suppose.

Enough with the pity party, apparently my blog is too emo harhar. Lots of fun things planned in the month before summer ends....Lots of people's birthdays, catching up with people I haven't seen in FOREVER, MAYBE skydiving on Sunday, staying with D in SF for a night, K is coming to visit me beginning of August, and then trip to Hawaii with the fam. Time is FLYING by!!

So the last two weeks have been REALLY REALLY ridiculous....I managed to escape some chaos at home with my pre-planned trip to the east coast, but I guess the crazy followed me harhar. As did the sun! So I suppose that makes up for it :) I hope all the east-coasters are appreciating the tiny bit of sun after a month of straight rain...I KNOW I AM hehe.

Okay so my trip has been ridiculous amounts of fun....It's been a LOT of fun seeing everybody in Boston, since so many people stayed behind for work and class. It's kind of weird, I didn't realize how much I'd missed everybody :) I guess I'm slowly starting to learn how to reconcile my different lives on the two coasts. I also met up with B & T, which was nice since we haven't talked or caught up in awhile. The area around Harvard is super nice and cute! I'm really jealous that most colleges have a type of plaza or student area for the kids to hang out at...BC is severely lacking in that area unfortunately :/ The rest of my nights in Boston were just the usual, and of course beer pong :)

So an unexpected turn of events led me to the New Jersey/New York area a couple days ahead of schedule, but it's been really fun so far :) Visited the Museum of Sex which was very interesting, and been eating at exciting fun (and somewhat famous) places. ALSO, I took two hip hop classes, BOTH of which I enjoyed VERY MUCH. I really love to dance, I can't believe I let myself not dance for a year when I went off to Boston....RIDICULOUS!! The first class was just a normal hip hop class with pretty fun choreography, but the second workshop I took was AMAZINGGGG. If you guys have not heard of/seen Kyle Hanagami and Ellen Kim dance, you guys are SERIOUSLY missing out. They are two amazing dancers/choreographers from SF who started their own group called The Lost Kids, and basically yeah I love them. Kyle Hanagami taught us a piece to Adele-Hometown Glory, and even though I usually REALLY dislike this new lyrical hip-hop trend, his choreo was fantastic. I realized that the reason I don't like lyrical hip hop is because unless it's done really well, it just looks bizarre and the moves don't match the music. However, in the right hands....it brings a whole new meaning to dance.

Anyway, here's a clip of one of my favorite dances that Ellen and Kyle did together...when footage of the dance I learned from Kyle is uploaded, I'll post that up too :)




Also EXCITING NEWS! I basically got like almost a foot of hair chopped off my head. This was something that popped into my head the week before I left for the east coast and yeah...I am actually really really glad that I decided to go through with it. After everything that's happened, I was definitely ready for a change. I am really really pleased with the results and yeah...HEHE.



Ummm yeah that's about all that's exciting that's happened in my life :) After my stay in New York I might be heading back to Boston for a couple of days to see L who just got back from China, and then to Providence to visit my sister...YAY! FUN TIMES FULL STEAM AHEAD!!

So right after I got back from 48 hours, it was the week of culture show. We had practices almost every night, and tensions were running rather high, which probably didn't help any. A lot of people were yelling for no reason, and basically the immensely high levels of stress brought out the best and the worst in everybody. It's really hard to try and get stuff done when people are falling asleep standing up and basically disregarding any directions whatsoever. Run throughs were kind of a mess, starting half an hour late (woot asian time!!) but we got our shit together :)

The day of the show was pretty smooth, the show was so fun!!! I miss hanging out backstage with all the people in the show, just chilling and eating and having a good time before we have to frantically run onstage :) I miss doing shows!! But yeah the performance was great, videos are on youtube I'm sure, just look up CSA/KSA culture show haha. I wanted to link the video of the fan dance, but I don't think anybody filmed it :( That makes me actually pretty sad....sigh. But anyway, here's a picture of the fusion part, with the korean fans on the outside, chinese fans on the inside :)



The afterparty of course was a complete shit show, full of drunken stumbling, some throwing up, crying, and drunk drama. Fun, but a little ridiculous, I basically ran away when shit started getting stupid and it was so full in the suite that we couldn't move. I did however take down the CSA president...So much for shot to shot hehe. I found her passed out on her bed an hour or two after I'd gotten there :P


yay fan dance girls!! :)


Stay tuned for part 3...

Happy Chinese New Years all! Although I never paid particular attention to this holiday before (except for the red envelopes of course :D), now that I'm far away from home, it seems much more important. All my Asian friends called home today, some are going home for the giant dinners and what not. I guess being in an environment that's so less Asian than I'm used to, I end up feeling a lot more Asian than ever before, if that makes sense. Also, the cute old chinese man at the dining hall cashier said happy new year's to me when I got dinner....hehehe. And my parents like to skype me now :) and they have also found this blog haha. Hi mom, hi dad.

So...Boston College is kind of a shit show. If I choose not to drink, then I end up witnessing the drunk messes that I usually run by on Friday and Saturday nights. Which is entertaining, I guess. Until the girl next to me on the bus throws up. Until I'm tired. etc.etc. Drinking too much does make me really tired; I don't particularly enjoy hangovers, although I don't think anybody does. Just an interesting note...I guess there's not much else to do in Boston haha. And it's WAY too cold to be running around outside.

On a side note, I watched a Pink Floyd synchronized laser light show last Friday in the city...which was AMAZING. I mean, of course everybody in the planetarium had a little help being happy, but the show was really ridiculous. They played the entire dark side of the moon album, and we shot through space, and honestly, it was great. If anybody reading goes to Boston, you should go check it out at the Museum of Science. They also have this cool mythical creatures exhibit that I kind of want to see...hehe. I'm a nerd at heart.

Also, I never really noticed the impact that dance and choir had on me. Until I started teaching this dance haha...shh. I guess that I am really conscious of my body and its parts, and the way I move? If that makes any sense haha. I can tell when my body feels really awkward and how to fix it (which I thought was normal, but I've received proof otherwise haha). I can imitate a pose or move rather easily, and I listen to music more carefully. I can pick up key changes in songs, mimic them, and I guess my general "musicality" is above average? or I hope so at least. Anyway, I don't really know how to describe the specific effects, but I am very thankful for the way that dance and singing changed me :)

ALSO, a dilemma. SO I've always had an appreciation for nice kicks (thanks a lot, george. haha) and I wanted a pair of high top nike dunks. I picked out the one I like, and looked around for the cheapest, and found an Ebay-esque site that had it for $60, which obviously excited me since its like $100 everywhere else. I clicked purchase to see how much shipping and tax was, and APPARENTLY ITS A BINDING CLICK, so regardless of the fact that I had not given payment info, since I created an account in order to see the complete cost, I was now "legally bound" to pay for the shoes. So regardless of the fact that I was about to buy it from a different site, I'd bought this one on accident instead. Which I thought was okay at the time, but several days later i realize...
1. the user is from china
2. somebody else had asked if the shoes were real, and he had commented on their personal pages saying no.
SO UMMMM. WTF. too late, he's shipped them, and will only give me a partial refund ($30) if i ship them back to china (which is another $20-30), so itd basically be like $60 down the drain, plus another $90 for the legit pair. SO WHAT DO I DO?? I really don't want to rock fake dunks, and i REALLY want a nice pair of sneakers (nobody here wears vans!! :( Guess it's a coastal thing) but I don't want to waste so much money... :(



On a more serious note, coming back to Boston I've had to readjust. I honestly get along with guys a lot better than girls...and thus the groups of friends I had back at home were all guys and I had separate good girl friends from everywhere else. Here, it's the complete opposite. I have a few group of girl friends, and a few good guy friends in between. Now, I'm not saying that I don't like the girl friends I have, but seriously, it is too much estrogen. I miss guy humor. I miss video games. I miss the chill vibe, no drama, no screaming, no crazy antics. SIGH. Still on the search for good friends in general....I forget a lot that the people that I'm leaving in California, that I had at least 4 years to handpick them. Connections like that don't appear in a semester.


I miss the sun, I miss a lot of things but I'm still going to be okay. :)

So I'm back in beautiful Boston after a good flight (half the plane seemed to be Boston College kids, 5 of which I knew :D), which has been covered with a glistening blanket of snow in my absence. It's gorgeous here any time of year really, quite enjoyable if I must say. I'm not quite used to that giant snowbank right outside of my window yet; I still keep thinking that when I look out it'll just be fields of dead grass haha. It's not that cold here so far, but it's supposed to plunge down to 0 degrees sometime this week...apparently it hasn't been this cold since 2005, so my Boston friends inform me. This is such a huge jump from the 60s (now 70s, so my California friends inform me) from the bay area or the ridiculous 80s of Long Beach during my connecting flight. I like the snow, for now at least. You can ask me again in a month. I will include a picture once I find my camera charger, or until the new one I bought arrives.

So since Boston College is Jesuit-Catholic, the week of Easter we get Thursday-Monday off. Because of this extra break, my spring break is earlier than every other school's, happening the first week of March. My spring break is in a month!!! Isn't that ridiculous? I land in San Jose on the 28th of February...LOLZ. But yeah, since nobody else (besides the furious) is going to be in Cupertino, I'm flying down to SD & LA for the 2nd half of the week to see friends :) I'm so excited!!!

UMMM...School starts tomorrow. I'm really not doing anything besides online shopping to waste time...Something I shouldn't be doing anyway since I spent probably around $500 in December on presents and clothes, but that's okay!! Chinese New Years is soon >:] hehehe. I guess being back at school is kind of nice, and my roommate cleaned her room for the first time since summer so my room feels more spacious than ever. I will also have to get used to not having a TV again...It feels like my break was either out with friends or in front of the TV with my laptop and some snacks haha. I've never watched that much tv before in my life.

Unfortunately, along with Boston came the news that one of my extremely good friends here, let's call her S, is transferring to Cornell next year :( She got in along with Boston College, but opted for the one further away from home (she lives in New York). However, BC is just too expensive for her parents and many of my other friends. The college she's transferring into in Cornell is associated with some state school, and she will also be getting much more financial aid so she'd be paying a state school tuition for an Ivy League education. This makes me incredibly sad- While I now know a lot of people here, there are not that many whom I hope I will stay close to for the next 4 years. For a lot of people, they still seem stuck in that high school mode; lots of drama, shit talking, and inconsideration. I'm almost scared to make friends; another cool person I know is supposedly transferring to Columbia next year as well. However, Boston College is what it is, and a $50,000 price tag is a bit much, especially since they are quite stingy with financial aid. I will miss S greatly :(

So ummm, a summary of break. Well as previously stated, tv and friends, and lots of sleep. I started going to the Verde in Castro after the one by quiznos closed down :( I realized that it simply is not worth it for me to spend $3 on a drink that I don't even really like that much, and that the drive to Castro is not that long and completely worth a hot steaming cup of verde :D. Went tipsy to a guard competition, lots of beer pong and other things. I think I have ascertained my poison of choice...Maybe that's not a good thing but it's nice to know I guess haha. I'm at my limit anyway, no more experimenting with new sunstances. But anyway, my BC friends tell me I got skinnier and paler, both of which make no sense.

Also, I don't remember if I mentioned it before, but my friend asked me to choreograph a dance for the annual CSA/KSA Culture Show, which I agreed to do. So I'll be doing the chinese fan dance. I sat at my computer for a couple hours today browsing youtube videos of traditional chinese dances looking for inspiration and a good song, both of which I found. I also used GarageBand for the first time today to edit the song!! Which was very fun and satisfying haha. But I digress. I miss dance. A LOT. I miss chinese dance, I miss modern, lyrical, maybe even ballet. I miss my daily dose of endorphins, I miss being flexible, I miss losing myself in movement and music.

I guess, I miss the opportunities to do whatever I love without having to be a superstar. I want to sing and dance, and do volunteer work, all without having to beat out 100 other hopefuls for maybe 2-3 spots. As a result of this yearning and asking around, I resolve to make use of the empty studio on main campus to dance my heart out whenever I want, and also the soundproof piano-equipped booths in the music building to belt at the top of my lungs without feeling self conscious (dorms have very thin walls, I have learned). I refuse to lose the things that make me happy.

There are a lot of other things I wanted to blog over the last couple of weeks...I was just too lazy to write a legit post instead of just a paragraph about one thing, but now that I've forgotten all of them and this has become a monster post, maybe I should start doing that..hahah.