For the Mr. Kites

I need to get some sleep.

I keep dozing off at random moments and suddenly I feel my consciousness ripping away from my surroundings and for a brief second or two or three, I am no longer in a stuffy classroom but at a bus stop, or running through the woods, or listening to my teacher from an alternate reality lecture in nonexistent languages. During these strange few moments, I am suspended in between two worlds-the physical one that binds me to this earth and the fantastical one that flies me away into the whirling imaginations of my mind. I am at once conscious yet dreaming, and during these lucid moments I have the choice of either continuing on my just-begun adventure or yanking myself out of, well I suppose out of myself, and back into awakening.

This is what falling asleep feels like to me. That strange limbo in which I always want to press onwards into my dreams and yet sometimes, even when I am safely and rightly in my pajamas in my own soft bed, my consciousness jerks awake for some unknown reason and then my eyes are wide open, staring but now actually seeing. Other times I am awakened by some loud noise or the realization that yes, I am in class, and the meager beginnings of whatever exciting hallucination that might have been flits away from the edges of my awareness, leaving me with a vague impression of having just teleported back from the bus stop that takes me to my dreams.

I can't wait to board whatever bus is waiting for me tonight.

Starting to get a little more homesick as time goes by. It's not the crippling depressing type of homesick though...at least not yet. More of a I'm happy the sun is coming back but I'm so excited to go home for the summer!!!!


In other news, I got the Special Initiatives Director position with our student government at BC!!! And I got placed into the Ethnic Studies team, which is basically exactly what I wanted. The Special Initiatives Directors work closely with the president and vice president on the issues that their platform was about, and for the president and vice president next year they are really emphasizing race issues on campus and better student support (for study abroad, living off campus, academic advising etc) and I really want to do something about both of those topics. The Ethnic Studies team is basically in charge of further developing Ethnic Studies majors/minors on our campus, and I must say we are SEVERELY lacking in this department. I'm not even TECHNICALLY minoring in Asian American Studies, because there IS no Asian American Studies minor, but just an Asian American concentration within the American Studies minor. SAD RIGHT?

Anyway I'm really looking forward to working as a director and on the team next year. When I get back from Japan life I am going to hit the ground running!! Although I'm kind of sad I won't be a part of the CSA E-board next year, I'll have other awesome things to fill up my time too :)

I've been filling out a ridiculous number of applications recently, trying to decide my future or something like that. Plans for this summer and next school year are so tentative right now, but I'm excited nonetheless. I'm finally pulling out of this strange funk (seasonal depression?) that I've been in for the past month or so and I'm getting back that old drive to accomplish great things. However, this means that I'm a little short on time... But better short on time than long I suppose! :)


In other news, it's finally getting warmer!! It was 90 here yesterday...HOW RIDICULOUS IS THAT? People keep remarking that I am suddenly so tan...just from sitting outside for a couple of hours :) AWESOME.