For the Mr. Kites

Somehow, in the past 24 hours, my life has turned into one big fucking soap opera.
I hate it.

At some point, making others happy, doing what you want, becomes overpowering, taking away your overall happiness as some terrible horrible cost. Where is this point? I wish I knew. I wish this didn't happen.

I don't understand, why people do the things they do. I think, if I can resist, if I can do something, then why can't they?


It was morning, and nothing has changed. Nothing is better, I feel exactly the same. Why would you do that? Why would you go and do something like that, to me?
It's so hard to stop shaking sometimes.
What do I do now?