For the Mr. Kites

Kind of frustrated, I got a C+ on my Religious Quest midterm, which is 40% of my grade. DAMN IT.

Granted, I wrote this in a hurry, and granted the material covered in the midterm was taught during February, aka culture show month, aka during class I would be frantically sending out emails instead of paying attention, but still. Last semester, I got an A+ on the final and the midterm...so this is slightly irritating.

Even more frustrating is the fact that I don't know why, I just don't GET it. I was completely on top of it and so in synch with the authors when we were covering Buddhism, but the moment we switched to Christianity, it's like I just have this mental block that keeps me from being able to really be able to grasp what's going on. Fast forward to the comparative part of our course, and I literally am just lost. Every time I raised my hand I knew I was saying the wrong thing. The professor would give me that awkward look and say "Hmmm...Riiiiight, not exactly...Let's try and flesh it out a bit more" and then call on somebody else. These lofty ideas are just floating around my head, and I can't seem to see them clearly. I can't push myself past the boundaries of my current thought to get to the level that our professor expects.



I just want to do well again this semester, and it's irritating because it's not just that I'm not trying hard enough. Oh well, going to see him during his office hours will help, hopefully.

Sometimes, I get so ambitious, or I want something so bad, that I can't fall asleep because I want it so much. Usually when this happens I get up and try to be productive, because I'm clearly not sleeping.


I have such big dreams, I'm so scared that I don't have the drive to actually accomplish them all. I'm trying so hard to prove myself wrong....WORK MODE ON!!!

I can't put together a coherent post right now, but here are a couple fun facts about my life recently to tide you all over.

• So my roommate's boyfriend is on spring break, and has thus been living in our room for the past week. I have gotten sexiled so many times, it's not even funny. Entertaining for the first couple of times, but now just slightly irritating. At least the week is almost over!
• Spring break was warm, fun, and much-needed. Disneyland on a Tuesday is AWESOME...no lines = hitting every ride (except Matterhorn :( it was closed) in both parks in about 8 hours, and Space Mountain TWICE. Yeeeuhhh.
  
• ...And now I'm thinking that maybe I want to stay in California over summer, with trips to the East Coast and hopefully Taiwan in between? Currently applying to internships at organizations aimed at providing counseling services for Asian Americans. I got into my Taiwan intensive program, but not sure if I want to do it anymore. Updates to come!
  
• Saw Alice in Wonderland last Friday...must say I am slightly disappointed. The graphics and the characters were amazingly done, but the plot was somewhat lacking, and rather flat. Even the climax wasn't that exciting.
• I'm getting back into work mode and it feels good. I love being productive!! Setting goals for myself at BC, for the summer, and for more personal things as well.
• Dance is slowly taking over my life again. I'm okay with that.
• Got a bunch of new music...I really like (well done) dubstep, and Sneaky Soundsystem is pretty great too. Check out their song, "Kansas City". Although I like many different types of music, I can never stray too far from EDM (Electronic Dance Music). Electro has my heart ♥

A very entertaining and enlightening clip on street dance and dance in general. It's 17 minutes long but worth every minute of it, I promise! A more wordy post coming soon.